Shannon Dill arrived at a place in Biloxi, Mississippi called The Mississippi Drug and Alcohol Treatment Center. She first learned of the facility, when she was asked by a James Coleman, a therapist given to her in the military, is she wanted to attend rehab. This was not because Shannon was causing trouble, but Shannon wanted to pursue a life without alcohol, given the military environment; where it’s a culture to consume various amounts of alcohol in the Esprit de corps and warrior fellowship. Shannon no longer wanted to consume alcohol. Given the fact, that she was sexually assaulted by a man, that she served with. Shannon opted to go to a rehab facility. Shannon called a rehab facility in one area, and was told to she couldn’t attend; even though, they had grants to attend there. The next place called was the Mississippi Drug and Alcohol Treatment Center. All of this, after the email was sent to the Pentagon, and several other soldiers in service.
So forth, Shannon dealt with homophobia and biased treatment and even racism at the facility; given, she was the only black person and female, that attended there. While Shannon attended she barely said anything to anyone there, but she would all of a sudden get comments toward her, when she knew she hadn’t even spoke. White men, such as Cliff Clary, a worker for the Pentagon, and United States Reserve Soldier, with a DUI, at the facility, would say to Shannon he didn’t like what she said, and Shannon didn’t even remember speaking to him or others, later he came to apologize to her, then asked her if he could say the “N” word. The “N” word being “Nigga” or in some people’s language “Nigger”. Shannon didn’t know what to do. There was even a girl in there named Erin Everett and a Tom in there. Erin and Tom seemed to have a relationship going on; although, Tom was married. Erin would come talk to Shannon and staff would advise Erin not to scare Shannon. Shannon and Erin talked about a lot of things to include conversations about why Erin was with a girl, Shannon presumably wanting to holler at her, and what she was doing with Tom. Erin would tell Shannon that she has been with girls, but she didn’t identify as apart of the LGBTQIA+ community, Shannon would ask questions about it, but it seemed to disturb Erin; so Shannon stopped.
Furthermore, Shannon would say to people in the rehab she thought some were attractive and some weren’t, not in a homosexual way, but that’s how she was treated because of sexuality. Even though other heterosexual people would do the same. So on, while in session with her therapist Pam Libby’s, Pam would always ask Shannon when speaking of her sexual assault, saying to Shannon, “How do you know you got raped” several times, even in one session; Shannon’s reply was every-time she asked, “ she woke up with him on top of her”, him being (Chaz Coleman) who she filed reports on.
Pam would even make comments to Shannon while in group settings, that Shannon needed to stop eating, and that she was getting fat, and later saying in front of the group, that she should stop eating again. Other clients came to Shannon’s defense telling Pam Libby’s to stop doing that, even when Pam denied it to the group, the other clients including Shannon would tell her yes you did. Pam even made statements regarding Shannon, saying to her, “You’d be better off around your own people.”
Disrespectful to Shannon, when Shannon didn’t even know why the comment was made, but it was hinted that, Erin Everett told Pam something to get Shannon in trouble. After expressing her concerns to another client named Elizabeth Shaw, Shannon became silent once again. Shannon even mentions that an Amanda Stone would parade around walking weird and looking at Shannon as she walked through the kitchen, like something was up. Amanda Stone even voiced to Shannon out of the blue, that she (Shannon) would do well in prison; concerning and confusing Shannon. Shannon has acknowledged she just looked at the woman crazy. Pam would even deny Shannon her rights to see family and friends in the facility, but let other clients see their friends and family members; her response was if they drink
Alcohol they can’t come to the facility; although they were supervised visits, they would not be intoxicated at the time, and Shannon was working on her friends and family relationships, but Pam instead focused on Shannon’s sexuality often, and questioning her sexual assault.
Outside people would come to the center such as Allison Anglado, Crystal – Boyles McGowan, Jeanie Murph, Heather Hancock, and several others to talk to the clients about God. Shannon was silent at first, but eventually started asking questions; mainly when Allison Anglado asked Shannon if she wanted her number; but Shannon looked at Allison because she didn’t know her, but started opening up to Allison about things going on in the facility, and how she was being treated as homosexual versus the heterosexual people in the facility; Shannon couldn’t also question, make a comment, and or talk about anything with them presumably because she was homosexual and it involved women in the conversation. Although those women would tell staff, that’s what was being discussed, and that they started those conversations. Crystal spoke to the group with a Jeanie murph and spoke about sexual assault while blaming the victim; which threw Shannon off, and Crystal came to speak to Shannon afterwards, asking Shannon to let her be her sponsor more than one time; even when Shannon didn’t know what sponsorship was. Eventually Shannon said yes, didn’t like the AA Big Book Crystal would come to the house and have her read, because she didn’t understand it, and Crystal would shove it down her throat. Shannon expressed those concerns with Elizabeth Shaw; eventually Stina Jacobs got Crystal removed from the facility presumably because Stina and other staff didn’t like her. Crystal when removed would call Shannon and ask her to ask the therapist to bring her back to the facility, but Shannon told Crystal they didn’t want her there, and the answer was no. Later on, Crystal applied for a job there, and called Shannon to tell her she would start working there. Shannon was bothered by this; especially with Shannon dealing with things in her own life; especially after sending complaints via email to the Pentagon and other soldiers. Where she suffered retaliation.
When Stina Jacobs joined the facility as a therapist, Shannon admitted that she thought Stina Jacobs was pretty; although other clients bashed her on a daily. Shannon was very respectful to Stina Jacobs, and never made a pass at her, when she was in the facility. Stina Jacobs, possibly started to take a liking into Shannon. Stina would always come to Shannon asking her to read things on the internet to see what she knew, and how she felt about it; things such as, someone committing suicide. Stina Jacobs would also express to Shannon when going to get things for the patients, that she was trustworthy, going to Shannon and Shannon only to make sure Shannon trusted her. Moving forward Stina Jacobs became Shannon’s therapist for ongoing issues with Pam Libby’s that she reported to the owners.
When Stina Jacobs became Shannon’s therapist, she would acknowledge to Shannon that she (Stina) was thing to steal all of Pam’s patients. Shannon and others acknowledged Stina group sessions were good, but Shannon defined her personal sessions as intrusive and abusive. When Shannon would talk to Stina about her sexual assault, Stina would laugh bringing more frustration to Shannon, with the already strained relationship. In which Stina Jacobs opted to do try things out on Shannon without her knowing what is was; even performing EMDR therapy on Shannon Dill without Shannon’s consent. Shannon describes her brain as feeling heavy and full, and like it was soaked in water. Shannon not knowing what Stina Jacobs did to her brain. Moving forward the relationship became even more strained, when Stina Jacobs sent an email to the military about Shannon, Shannon not knowing what it was or what was in it, after Shannon opted several times to not have Stina Jacobs as a therapist or even talk to her, but kept pushing for Shannon to talk to her; even when Shannon would say no, then all of sudden Stina needed a witness to talk to Shannon, and would tell Shannon that another co worker at the Mississippi Drug and Alcohol Center was a sick person. This sick person being Crystal McGowan. Shannon does now remember that Crystal showed Shannon how to kill heralded, by saying to her if she wants to do it right, take a blade and cut up her wrist. Shannon was under so much stress and people pulling her in the facility to include Pam Libby’s, Stina Jacobs, Crystal McGowan, and others that worked at the facility, but Shannon began to shut down and not talk about anything personal anymore to anyone. Shannon called her military therapist James Coleman in which he told Shannon to watch those white people. Shannon could barely remember days before, and medicine they were giving Shannon; were making her body shake to where she could barely stand. Stina Jacobs even asked Shannon if she had African American soap to give to another patient that was African American newly in the facility. Later on, Shannon called her mother to come pick her up, but Stina kept asking Shannon why she wanted to leave very aggressively. Even when talking to James Coleman, Shannon couldn’t even get her privacy on her phone to speak, because Stina Jacobs would walk up on and lean over to hear listen to what Shannon was saying on the phone, even when Shannon would try and walk away from her. Stina Jacobs even presumably showed Shannon how she sucked dick, by using a cup and a straw, when talking to Shannon about her boyfriend, that even those in the facility thinks she lied about. There were even reports that Stina and others workers were using drugs, and it was reported to the owners.
Stina Jacobs would even tell Shannon she couldn’t play her music; even though, other patients would play vulgar music and said nothing listening to it, but saying Shannon’s music was inappropriate, and her reasoning was that Shannon was “mines”. Stina Jacobs even voicing to staff members, that she didn’t care, if Shannon didn’t speak to her, but from clear evidence she did care. Stina Jacobs would even ask Shannon while session, when Shannon would express joy for making money on social media, to help her do to that. Also, when Shannon would share her music with other clients, Stina would ask to hear it; even Shannon telling her she writes books, with Stina asking her to send it to her, and if she could send her friend Belinda a copy of it for her to read. Shannon was hesitant on these questions, but eventually said yes to giving those things to her. Stina Jacobs was even given the email for Shannon and her to discuss in therapy sessions, but never did; in fact, it was never brought up in any of the sessions with Stina Jacobs; although Shannon voiced to her to talk about those things. Stina Jacobs possibly played as a sponsor to Shannon, while working with 12 step worksheets on Shannon; that presumably was never worked on with other clients, without Shannon knowing what the worksheets were for, and what it entailed. Stina Jacobs even sent a message to Shannon saying she was going to come and see Shannon, in the middle of the night, at the facility, Shannon voiced that to the facilities nurse, but the nurse shut it down saying to Shannon she didn’t say that, when Shannon went to show the nurse the message, the message had weirdly been deleted. Even though Shannon saw and knew it was sent by Stina Jacobs, only later for Shannon to find out how she did it. To possibly cover her own career with dealing with Shannon. Stina Jacobs often tried to flip the script on Shannon multiple times; especially when Shannon would say she didn’t want to talk to her, even after Stina reluctantly trying to get Shannon to get her therapy; meanwhile, after Shannon finally caved in, Stina voiced she had therapy boundaries and now she doesn’t know if she wants to give Shannon therapy, again, playing with Shannon in the rehab facility and getting her other coworkers to help her do those things.
Shannon even had problems with the drug related worker named Beth Moran that came into the facility to teach a group session on alcohol and drugs, and where it comes from. Having classes in there to make stress balls using play-doh. On one occasion, Beth Moran snatched a canister of play-doh out of Shannon’s hand, when she voiced she didn’t want to interact with the convicted rapist that was in the room. This forcing Shannon to go be nice to him, even when she didn’t want to, or even speak to him.
Shannon called her mom, to come and pick her up from the facility, even the other newly African American boy named Jeremy, left due to dealings with the facility and didn’t stay long. Stina wanted to talk to Shannon’s mom about her leaving, trying to get Shannon to stay. After these interactions with Stina Jacobs, Shannon had only a week or two before she completed her rehab process, and not marked as AMA. Stina Jacobs told Shannon along with other patients that she worked at a place in Hattiesburg, Mississippi, and for them to come visit her there. Possibly a setup for the patients. When Shannon got ready to leave the facility and completed her stay, Stina Jacobs told Shannon to come and get her, for her ceremony that gets done when patients leave where they give them kind words moving forward, and coins for completing the program. When Shannon came to get Stina, Stina said to Shannon why is she in there to get her, and Shannon replied to Stina saying I’m having my ceremony. Eventually Stina came. Stina said some words to Shannon that weren’t so nice, and then asked Shannon for a hug after she said those things; in which Shannon stood there looking at her when she stood in front of her asking her to get up and hug her. After Shannon finally got up to hug her, with Stina not leaving, Stina then replied in front of the group that she would be back. Even Pam Libby’s asked Shannon for a hug, after seeing Stina give Shannon one. Shannon left the facility to put those things behind her, but Crystal would call Shannon numerously saying to Shannon that she got fired, they didn’t want to pay her, and another patient in there came back, named Aaron Cini, an Army Officer that was in the facility for alcohol abuse; even when he shamed Shannon for being in the facility; although there under a military’s therapist supervision and there paying for it on her own.
Aaron Cini approached Shannon with anger, when Shannon would talk about her life in the rehab facility during sessions; in which Aaron would voice to Shannon that he didn’t like what she did by sending the email to the Pentagon, even stated to Shannon after learning about Shannon’s sexual assault, saying to her while in group session, at least she didn’t get kicked out the house. Dehumanizing Shannon. Shannon and other clients and workers would even notice that Aaron would be looking to see if Shannon was on anything in the facility, and even calling Shannon a repeat offender; although she paid out of pocket to go the facility, and the military paid his way, gave him his regular check, and even came to the facility to stand by him while he was there, things that weren’t done when Shannon was in the facility. There was even an interaction, where Aaron Cini tried sticking his chest out at Shannon while in the facility like he could run her in there, and Shannon expressed to him he doesn’t talk to her like that, and he doesn’t run anything in there. Later on, Aaron would ask Shannon to show him things, but would never say anything nice about Shannon, even other clients noticed. Aaron even expressed to the group that he got to come there without having to account for time lost, at his military job; although Shannon had to. When shannon returned to her job, she couldn’t even remember her job duties, like her memory was completely erased. Even coworkers brought up her email, she knew she sent it, but couldn’t even remember what was in it. Shannon has been left with a strain from these experiences. Shannon’s books and music are entered below.
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